I was so tired, I forgot to post yesterday.
Spent the entire day studying for two tests and a quiz. You know, the old me (myself a month ago lol) would have been stressed to tears about all of this but for some reason, I feel at ease. I’m not worrying and I know that all I can do is try my best. If I want good outcomes, I just have to work harder and have better time management skills. That’s all.
I was also told today that I am admired.
Me. Admired.
Chile….
037: I’m getting really good at keeping up with this on a daily basis. Anyway, I’m awake and reading this novel for my Human Spirituality class. I love that class for some reason and I’m really interested in this book. Something about other people’s journeys excites me. It motivates me.It makes me want to get up and explore.
Speaking of, I’d really like to get away during my spring break. Get out of Richmond, hell, out of Virginia for the week. Just escape and let my mind at ease.
It would have to be with someone I can stand for more than 3 hours though and that makes my list of people extremely minimal.
We shall see.
I spent the entire day in bed watching Law & Order SVU. This day of rest was very much needed after how long and busy last week and the weekend were.
Back to reality in the morning.
Back to everything I’ve been talking to the universe about.
You know, I was supposed to go to a study session for bio today but I missed that. I was so exhausted for some reason, maybe because I had a long ass week. My friends and I decided to let loose a little bit tonight and went to the club.
Everytime I say I’m done with the club, I always end up going back. I’m over the club though, I just like to go for my friends and to see the few beautiful women that are there. Emphasis on few. Smh. I’d rather chill, I always post up and do my own thing and basically dismiss anyone who approaches me lol. I’m not there to get chose.
I’m on my period so my sex drive is in high gear right now. Smh. For the first time in…months, I don’t have anyone to bring back with me. I would say that I need to work on that but I’m gonna try this whole celibacy thing out for real….but temptation’s a fine bitch making bacon with pierced nipples.
Don’t ask.
Today was a fail. I’m on my period, I missed Kendrick Lamar’s set at our homecoming concert….and the rest shouldn’t even be mentioned.
I guess this is what happens when you start falling back into old habits.
Let’s try this again in the morning.
Today was not my day but luckily it was my last day waking up at 8AM for the week. May this Esperanza Spalding album and animal documentary take me away.
You know, something about the weather distracts me so freakin’ much. I never want to go to class, I just want to sit outside and enjoy campus. I spent some time outside with one of my old students (I don’t even see her as that anymore) and it was pretty cool. She used to give me shit in class last semester lol but we’re becoming some kind of friends. I dig it.
Classes were fine. Except Calculus but I….see…..ugh. I’m not bad at math, but me taking a year off of Calc made me kind of rusty. Meh.
OH! I did a good deed today. Someone left their iPod in a seat in a desk at the library and I found it. I looked in the “About” and found his name so I found him on Facebook and asked him if he lost something. He came back though, probably before he got to read the message, and asked for it and I gave it to him. Do onto others what you want done onto you, right?
I think I’ve begun to drown myself in school work. If I’m not in class, I’m in the library. Meh. I’m also forced to wake up at 8AM every day (except Friday) since I’m a Teacher’s Assistant for a 9AM math class. It’s so new to me because ever since I’ve been in college, my days have started at 1PM or later. It’s a very nice adjustment though, it keeps me active. That’s how I want to stay….active. Active while still searching for my inner Buddha. Ha.
Not much going on other than that. I have a few tests and quizzes to study for and I’d like to stay on top of my work so I won’t have to watch my friends graduate in 2014 lol.
Still on the agenda:
Today. Was. The. Longest. And. Busiest. Day. Of. My. Life. I want to sleep for the rest of the week now.
Tired.
I need to study.
I start work at 9 tomorrow.
I have 4 classes after that.
Let me not think about all of that before I get angry. I’m not focused. I can’t even focus on this Calc stuff and I think I have a quiz tomorrow. Failing is NOT an option, I shall conquer these 18 credits. I shall! I will! I just….I just need to sleep for about a week first.
